Below are the 6 most recent journal entries recorded in fumattrice's LiveJournal:

Sunday, March 12th, 2006
6:33 pm	Comeback to D.C. Well, I'm back in Washington. This weekend I didn't do so badly. I drank beer mostly, ate food (but stuck to the Greek Lent rules) which was mostly good for me, and overall I wish I had not eaten so much (although I did keep under 1000 calories a day even on Saturday) and taken my Stackers more religiously. However, not so bad! So, today I ate the following: A few slices of random fruit = at most 100 calories A coffee with 3 equal = 0 calories A Michelob Ultra = 100 calories and I may eat chick peas later = 200 calories So somewhere in between 200-400 calories, let's say 500 total, worse case scenario. Hopefully I'll keep up the good work. Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 9th, 2006
11:42 pm	Last Day in DC this week. I feel a little guilty, but I cracked an hour ago. However, it is good to have something in my stomach. I purchased a salad (2 cups?), no oil or dressing, mostly raw carrots, green lettuce, and 3 little plum tomatoes. I also had a whole green apple. I took 2 stackers today, to keep the metabolism going. All together: 50 calories, at most. That's not bad, and I feel pretty good. This morning I was really bad...dizzy, falling all over myself, swaying back and forth. It's a good end to a bad day. Nothing tastes as good as thin feels. Remember that. Current Mood: content (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 8th, 2006
9:01 pm	Nothing Tastes As Good As Thin Feels Woohoo. Today is the first day where I ate nothing with caloric value...unless you count 3 sticks of gum (trust me...my breath kicked, and I had to be around people.) I've continued the body graphing (i.e. the repition of the mantra in ballpoint pen)...I am no longer counting, but instead making it my obsession to write it, over and over and over. I guess it's a good way to take obsession away from food and concentrate it on something else. Plus, it's a good reminder, because it's true, at least to me. NOTHING TASTES AS GOOD AS THIN FEELS. PERIOD. Current Mood: content (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 7th, 2006
10:26 pm	End of Day 2 Well, I've reached the end of the night. I've only taken 2 Stackers today, and considering all the smoking I've done I'm not so sure I can take a third without going into some sort of tantrum. I went to therapy today, and sort of played the "I have a friend..." story on my shrink, but I think she knows I was referring to myself. What the hell was I thinking? I'm not a very good liar to begin with. God, she must think I'm a nut. I don't disagree...it's not that I can't help doing this, but rather that I'm forcing my own hand against my sanity, forcing myself to do this, because I want to believe I can...that I can do it. That I am the same person as I was four years ago, and that my strength hasn't faltered. Unfortunately, I ingested one pint of light beer today. I had no choice; I was in a social setting where it would have been inappropriate to refrain. Nonetheless, that's it. I had a tea as well, with one equal. And a shitload of water. Calories (for the beer): 150-200 calories (where 200 is worse worse case scenario) Feeling a bit dizzy, and sort of have trouble in moving mobiles, but otherwise doing OK. Current Mood: exhausted (Comment on this)
Monday, March 6th, 2006
11:08 pm	Clean Monday (continued) Oops, I lied. I also had a can of corn...say 200 calories. So total calorie count for clean monday: 200 calories Current Mood: blank (Comment on this)
9:06 pm	Clean Monday Today is what the Greeks refer to as "Kathari Deftera" or "Clean Monday". It is the first day of Lent. I have eaten nothing today, and have just taken my third Stacker. I took all the food that I most definately cannot eat, and I knocked on the door of the resident nun in my dormitory. She seemed perplexed, but I explained that I was fasting for Greek Lent, and that I didn't want to throw food away, so would she like to take some food off my hands? She seemed glad enough to acquiesce, I guess. Overall, I've been a bit hungry, but I've been able to keep myself busy, so I don't really feel the hunger most of the time. I know that the nights will be the hardest, and I'm prepared. I wonder how long I can go without eating anything? Today's ingestion: About three glasses of water. One cup of coffee, black 3 equal. I may drink a bit more water before I go to sleep. Current Mood: okay (Comment on this)